就是这样

Hated Because of Great Qualities
演唱者：Blonde Redhead
专辑：Melody Of Certain Damaged Lemons
人：DounSe

secret so sorry that i forgot
secret secret we are all bound to forget.
i was worried i might be rude to you.
so worried that i was.
it was a lie to serve the truth

and i am still guilty.
i missed.
so be it.

everywhere everything you ever touched.
cutting in will not do it. there is nothing to it.
you were sorry that i was alone
so sorry that you run away.
putting it on me but you already knew it.
it never meant a thing.
so be it.
i can not understand this at all.
i can not pronounce this at all.
these are different matters
these are uncertain feelings
they should never be discussed here
so keep it to yourself

i missed.
so be it.
everywhere everything you ever touched.
cutting in will not do it. there is nothing to it.
you were sorry that i was alone
so sorry that you run away.
putting it on me but you already knew it.
it never meant a thing.
so be it.

i can not understand this at all.
i can not pronounce this at all.

these are different matters
these are uncertain feelings
they should never be discussed here
so keep it to yourself

中关村 北京贝塔

海淀 雅乐轩 早饭好吃，回来以后两次梦到在雅乐轩吃早饭。

钟鼓楼之间，脚下咖啡，二楼露台，槐树枝从头顶斜过去，这个季节，还有槐花。和朋友见面，聊天，陪我走几条街才打上车。

有些北京出租车司机是恐怖的一个群体。

吃了茴香馅的包子和炒肝。以前看《我爱我家》付明老人在说到今天吃包子，茴香馅的。总像过节一样的神情。从小，茴香在印象里就是种香料，很好奇，茴香馅的包子到底是怎样，不会好吃呀。结果发现，茴香就是一种蔬菜，有点像水芹菜。吃了3个包子。

迷笛。迷笛是一个象征，热血，善良，淳朴，摇滚精神。看到了铁风筝重组后，虞笙扔白菜和念诗。看了耳光，看了霜冻，看了萨满，看了黑撒……工作关系，认真完整看到演出的只有英国的LITTLE FISH 。

最后一天手工休息，在鼓楼大街吃香锅，烤串，北冰洋的饮料，还见了我做过评委的弹唱会冠军张太极，浙大音乐青年成了自己创业开公司的商务金链男子，哈哈哈。

回来后，重感冒，嘴巴裂开几道口子。

Still Falling
Breathless And On Again
Inside Today
Beside Me Today
Around Broken In Two
'till You Eyes Shed
Into Dust
Like Two Strangers
Turning Into Dust
'till My Hand Shook With The Way I Fear
I Could Possibly Be Fading
Or Have Something More To Gain
I Could Feel Myself Growing Colder
I Could Feel Myself Under Your Fate
Under Your Fate
It Was You Breathless And Tall
I Could Feel My Eyes Turning Into Dust
And Two Strangers Turning Into Dust
Turning Into Dust

1993 <So Tonight That I Might See >专辑

噩梦醒来的感觉很矛盾，一面被梦中的情绪牵引悲伤不止，一面又为现实中那些可怕的人事没有出现庆幸。。。我的心中仍有害怕失去或者离开的恐惧。

空有辞藻文字美在我看来从来不是美。
光有技巧也只是工具陈列。
诚如诚挚是最好的社交态度。
超脱了格式和技巧的限制，哪怕是用最平实的语言，最自然的表述，美感和诗意也会被感知到，并一直留存记忆。譬如一句“我的爱 是针尖上的蜂蜜”。
王小妮的《上课记》是和我最近几年坚持的审美观一致的作品。几次笑，几次泪，几次泪中有笑，笑中有泪。

（在澳门 威尼斯人 房间 一衣抓拍）

榜中榜 见识了媒体。  很大一部分媒体人都是势利的，只在乎爆点。

红毯和媒体中心，见识了一部分艺人一些真实的状态。

退房后，离开酒店前，在一楼赌场下注了一把，赢了。

跟着澳门当地音乐人一起去了南屏雅叙，老餐厅，就像杜琪峰电影里黑帮谈事情吃东西的地方。吃了很好吃很好吃的蛋挞、三明治和奄列。

暮春秋色，太贴切。

多开阔
幻生凋落
曙分
云舞
冬穿梭
晚来经过
手挥
捕捉
起风了
骤雨下天
暮春
秋色
一清池
桂花妩媚
万丘壑
锦缎绫罗
或多
已消落
光阴归来
变空白
染尘埃
一并敛埋

此间的少年，在何方？

http://www.xiami.com/album/373203

http://www.xiami.com/song/showcollect/id/10911163

2011 张北音乐节  水云间

又要开始出差季了

我已经不再执着于记录描写梦境，可梦境从来未曾离我远去。

我在改造一个院子，把空地改成花园，把漏水的屋顶加固，把前后几进都连起来。我还向某人展示了下灶头和灶神的位置。然后发现，那些早就被推土机化成一块黄色的粘土地。